Our Broken, Miraculous World
Andreas in Valera, Venezuela by Zack Kouns

My attempt at orgasms were so painful when I was younger that I was unable to achieve one until I was in my early 20s. When I overcame the mangling pulse of oceanic misery, I felt that I'd lost something potent and I laid sobbing in my bathtub, frightened that I'd become human. Finally, I became acquainted with the pain of being alive and agony became pleasure.